So blessed

Hi there,

So today I am so very thankful for all the many blessings in my life and I guess I just wished to share them, and what a better place to share them than a blog. As you all know this past new years eve I got engaged to the most amazing man in the whole world; my best friend, confident, my soul mate, my absolute everything (well besides God). I am so thrilled that this is finally happening, we have been hoping this would happen soon, but never in my wildest dreams did I think we would be able to get married this year, I cannot express the joy that I am feeling. On top of all the joy of marrying the man I love, my amazing Parents, Auntie, and Grandma are all helping us pay for the wedding. This is more than I could ever ask for, I never expected anyone to help us pay for our wedding and our reception, like wow this is such a huge blessing! I am so thankful for all they are putting in to help make our wedding super special! I am so grateful!!!

Everything about this so far has felt like it was from God. Everyone we have talked to about moving towards marriage has encouraged us to do so. Both of our parents are for it. The date of the wedding happens to be on our 5th anniversary. The reception site worked out and is more than I ever thought we would be blessed with!!! Everything is just falling into place. Even other couples we’ve talked to about weddings have said “this will be the worst 6 months of your relationship, so prepare for the worst.” And so far it has been wonderful. We have enjoyed talking about the wedding, planning the wedding, planning for after the wedding, and dreaming about our soon to be future. I mean of coarse it is not the easiest thing in the world, but we are learning. We are both facing things right now that we had never thought of before. But it seems like God’s hand is on it all…

I look at others relationships and it is so easy to see what they have and be jealous and wish that Andrew and I had that, that we had lots of money, that we had all the free time in the world, that they have high paying jobs; they are done with school, that they are already married. I see all the flaws that we both posses and wonder if we are making the right decision; then I take a step back and realize that this is not from God. These feelings are from elsewhere. The Devil! The Devil is out to still kill, steal and destroy “Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8 (NIV)” He is trying to kill the joy that I have, he is trying to blind me from everything that I do have in my life, he wants me to struggle and he wants me to be stressed. It gives him joy when I am second guessing what I know in my heart to be true. Which I can’t let happen! It is so easy to look and want what others have, to want the nicest things, and to want my "dream wedding" but I remember this day is about Andrew and I showing the rest of the world we mean business, that we want to spend the rest of our human lives together. That we love each other more that anyone will ever understand. and I realize I already have my dream wedding, I already have everything I could ever need, it is him and I could ask for no one better!

So I guess that the purpose of this whole blog is to remind all of you who are reading that no matter where you are in your life, whether it is preparing to take a leap of faith in God and others, or just living day to day remember that no matter what, God loves you, he wants to be happy, he wants you to enjoy everyday life, and he wants you to expect miracles every single day! And most of all he wants you to seek him when it seems like there is no happiness. And maybe when you seek him he will open your eyes to all the blessings that are right in front of you!

Thanks for reading,

I hope pray that God will bless you today and for always,

Jolene